That phrase came to me a few days ago; what it means I'm not sure other than part of the art of living, and living with another specifically is elective forgetting. Not all enemies and antagonists must last forever. In other words, a husband is a man you haven't shivved. Yet. (It's a joke, calm down, calm down. If you don't believe me, call him. He's sitting by the phone waiting to hear from The One who will make America Great Again.)
I feel I owe Someone Something this morning because GodKnows™ this post won't write itself. And in that way it resembles almost anything else in my life except the certainly of mortal decay. Anyway, it is spring and the itch I've felt for weeks to throw my crutches away and walk unaided into the light will now be indulged. I, like much of the natural world, am molting. Had to drop the latest math class because I was never going to get more than a C- and an aneurysm in the process. And now don't yet know how to finish what I started.
Cuthbert, in his manly wisdom, being kind says to me, "Well, now you can focus on something you do well." Translation: I. Told. You. So. (Believe when I tell you that remarks like the above are what pass for compassion in our marriage.) He's got a point -- a wiser woman than I would have pursued the social sciences, or the arts. And as excited as I am by them, the many subjects that fall under those classifications are not ones I want to teach. At least not occupationally. I wants to teach Math (or Maths as our friends across the pond say). And I'm not entirely convinced that it is impossible for a woman who hasn't always eaten her spinach (and is now paying for it).
And there is the matter of the job. I work for a world class university and, at least in the stratum I occupy, because of that I have extraordinary employee benefits. When you've reached the stage of life where you actually study those Social Security statements that come in the mail, benefits such as retirement savings and health insurance matter. Perhaps too much but they do. I've had a glimpse of the ardors of old age, the burden it is on your children, and frankly, I wouldn't blame Daughter No. 1 if she puts a pillow over my head and Daughter No. 2 serves as lookout. (As long as they don't talk while they're doing it. I hate to miss a good conversation and my hearing's shit anyway.) The job itself and the goodies it provides will be hard to abandon. The running joke in my house is that Cuthbert so loves the University's health facilities that he'll be pushing my wheelchair to the office when I'm 99 years old just so we'll still be covered. And right now, that's as good a life plan as any.
For now.
I feel I owe Someone Something this morning because GodKnows™ this post won't write itself. And in that way it resembles almost anything else in my life except the certainly of mortal decay. Anyway, it is spring and the itch I've felt for weeks to throw my crutches away and walk unaided into the light will now be indulged. I, like much of the natural world, am molting. Had to drop the latest math class because I was never going to get more than a C- and an aneurysm in the process. And now don't yet know how to finish what I started.
Cuthbert, in his manly wisdom, being kind says to me, "Well, now you can focus on something you do well." Translation: I. Told. You. So. (Believe when I tell you that remarks like the above are what pass for compassion in our marriage.) He's got a point -- a wiser woman than I would have pursued the social sciences, or the arts. And as excited as I am by them, the many subjects that fall under those classifications are not ones I want to teach. At least not occupationally. I wants to teach Math (or Maths as our friends across the pond say). And I'm not entirely convinced that it is impossible for a woman who hasn't always eaten her spinach (and is now paying for it).
And there is the matter of the job. I work for a world class university and, at least in the stratum I occupy, because of that I have extraordinary employee benefits. When you've reached the stage of life where you actually study those Social Security statements that come in the mail, benefits such as retirement savings and health insurance matter. Perhaps too much but they do. I've had a glimpse of the ardors of old age, the burden it is on your children, and frankly, I wouldn't blame Daughter No. 1 if she puts a pillow over my head and Daughter No. 2 serves as lookout. (As long as they don't talk while they're doing it. I hate to miss a good conversation and my hearing's shit anyway.) The job itself and the goodies it provides will be hard to abandon. The running joke in my house is that Cuthbert so loves the University's health facilities that he'll be pushing my wheelchair to the office when I'm 99 years old just so we'll still be covered. And right now, that's as good a life plan as any.
For now.
As Mouse said to Easy Rollins: "Do you want me to kill him for you?" If "Cuthbert" wants to vote for Trump, I'll do him in and then move to New Zealand. The house is in contract and I'm packing to move back to Brooklyn ---- PERMANENTLY!!!
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